Happy Birthday to Me

   Am I the only one who treats their birthday like most people treat New Year's? I spend the whole day thinking about where I am and where I thought I would be when I turned... My conclusion this year? Even though I am super blessed to be where I am, with the people I am with, I am not where I hoped to be.
   I have been saying that for as long as I can remember that if I could wake up at any age, I would ant to be married, twenty-one, and pregnant. On my twenty-second birthday, I woke up and realized I would never be twenty-one and pregnant. Some of you reading this may think I'm crazy for focusing on this. After all I am only twenty-two. It is not like I'm an old lady who has missed her opportunity to have babies, but it still kind of hurts. My life is not where I thought it would be.  I want to feel a baby move inside me. I want to know that our baby has a piece of me and a piece of my amazing husband. I want to see my parents and my husband's mom as grandparents.
   I still have hope. I still think I am suppose to be a mom and I really do believe that my God is all powerful and has the ability and the desire to grant this wish. I meant what I said earlier. I know how truly blessed I am. Not only do I have an amazing family; my husband has an amazing family. My husband loves me and my dogs are super sweet. And, by the way, have you seen my house? It is huge and beautiful and will be our home (God willing) for a long, long time.
   So why is it so easy to become Little Miss Mopey? I guess deep inside I am just a little girl throwing a temper tantrum just like when I wanted to keep the kitten I found while riding my bike. I was about seven and had wanted a kitten for my whole life. (not an exaggeration) I was riding my bike and this kitten kept following me in the street. It almost got hit by a car. So I picked it up and brought it home, but my parents wouldn't let me keep it. I threw a fit similar to the one that I throw when I think about how much I want to be pregnant.
   I am so grateful for all of the love and support that all of my friends and family have given me. I promise to try to limit my temper tantrums to a minimum. You guys are the best and I am so blessed to have you.
Love, Me